One wish 

two wish

too Surrender

obsessed illusions

to forget

like layers of the self-same onion

peeled off only in regret.

To let go of the mirror image

 to absolve the demon lust

 one week, one month,

 one year of loathing

 pooling waters

 turning rust.

Take these words and

Take this vision

 spill it in a sink of shame

 flush it to the deepest bottom

 lead me into

 life again.

Stop the moments of pure suffering

give them back like gifts of gold

Smiling now with honour taken 

these misgivings

honest Hold.

Take me back to where I came from

unshaped rock and alpine stream

stretch the moonbeams down from heaven 

make your Grace

my fondest  dream.